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Viva Tarragelona Screenshot 20260301 060422MY STORY

Viva Tarragelona

I am of my native country, but I live in Catalonia, I live in spain, I live in the European Union. I belong to an increasing set of people who I guess we call from 'Tarragelona' (no, this isn't fetch😂 I'm not trying to coin a new word*) but it is people whose life is centered mostly in Barcelona but we live in Tarragona. Barcelona is no longer viable as a place to have dignified housing unless you're super rich or you live with your parents. Tarragona on the other hand is still doable. Yes, you are an hour from Barcelona but you actually can have a decent place to live and, as you live there, you slowly start to realize it's fookin amazing. But watch out... More and more people are starting to realize this... and by the time you decide to come here it will have already become too expensive. Move now!   *I'm a liar... yes I am!
ElleMX
June 1, 2025
Pop Videos StalkerI'M WEIRD

Pop Videos

Have you ever watched old pop videos? I mean really watched them. Not just listened to the tune, but looked at everything on the screen. The outfits that they wear, things they do, the places they show. Lionel richie's 1984 hit 'Hello' is a straight up stalkers handbook. It's about a college professor who is obsessed with one of his students and I mean he's not just like obsessed  - he's scary obsessed; watching the video you see him following her around campus, including when she's at dance class randomly walking down the corridor, anywhere and everywhere. He like literally hovers wherever the poor girl is. And then there's the chilling lyrics which, once you know it's a song about stalking will send goosebumps popping out your arms.... I've been alone with you inside my mind And in my dreams, I've kissed your lips a thousand times I sometimes see you pass outside my door But that's nothing compared to the chorus... Hello, is it me you're looking for? I can see it in your eyes I can see it in your smile This is the classic moment where the stalker asks themselves if the victim loves them and then they answer the question themselves with some spurious evidence like "I can see it in your eyes'. Now of course, some blockhead will try to argue that because she makes the sculpture of him (which I suppose means that she's in love with him,) that somehow this excuses the stalking and the inappropriate relationship between teacher and student. Absolutely not! ...reciprocal feeling does not retroactively legitimise predatory behaviour, especially where power is unequal! Conclusion: sorry, I'm just being humorous... I mean obviously I do not approve of any of that behaviour but who the hell knows what was  happening in 1984... I don't know... I'm not gonna get on my hobby horse. But I do, however, maintain the original premise:   watching old pop videos is really mental. P:S: interestingly, after talking about this with a friend he whipped his phone out and start doing a bit of research, and it turns out that Lionel Richie actually didn't like the video or want the video to be anything to do with the blind girl or someone in college. The director, however... who also directed beat it by Michael Jackson... told him that the video was his responsibility and bad luck. So if anyone was the stalker, it was the director😂  
ElleMX
May 30, 2025
All dressed up to go to town… Ezgif 192adcc9ea6158cbPRETTY IN THE CITY

All dressed up to go to town…

I despise drugs, but if I come across a half smoked joint in an ashtray I simply have to smoke it. So there I was in a country house in the province of Girona. We'd been lying around for a couple of days in tracksuits, so we decided to get all dressed up and go into town. And so I dutifully got all dressed up - well, not all dressed up, but quite dressed up - and then as I was waiting for my friend I spotted this half-smoked joint in the ashtray and, according to the rule mentioned above, I had to smoke it. Turned out it was one of these newfangled super uber extraterrestrial semi-hallucinogenic things, because I proceeded to spend about an hour in the garden with the flowers, as you can see in the photo above. What's the moral of the story? ...Flowers are surprisingly good listeners.
ElleMX
April 15, 2025
Working as a seamstress by day and a singer by night… 612IC8RNThL. AC SL1500BOOKS

Working as a seamstress by day and a singer by night…

Chanel was the daughter of a minor nobleman who had fallen on hard times. That's what she told people anyway, but the reality was that her mother died and her father abandoned her and she was raised an orphan in a charitable institution. It's very curious how any famous person these days would kill for an origin story like that, but in those days it was shameful to come from such lowly origins. So Chanel simply did what any sensible person would do: she lied magnificently, wore the lie like one of her own little black dresses, and let the aristocrats who actually did inherit their wealth spend their entire lives wondering why they seemed so dreadfully dull by comparison.
ElleMX
April 2, 2025
One of those book purchases I feel compelled to make now I’m post 30… 716kupZcxtL. SL1500BOOKS

One of those book purchases I feel compelled to make now I’m post 30…

  I suppose I'd better explain the title. I don't know, I think it's something to do with a vague feeling that I should be seeking inspiration from women who combine an exemplary domestic matrimonial situation with professional excellence (she has 5 kids and was leader of the House of Representatives. I have neither. Anyway, the problem with  this exceedingly dull biography is that it lacks tension and a gruelling ascension, meaning it just reads like an excellent CV. And anyway, things got off to a bad start because this book began with the cardinal sin of telling me what is going to happen. Yes, I know she's a public figure but there's still lots of things I don't know about the story so don't start in your introduction telling me everything. Sorry Molly, but this belongs to that rare category of books I just could't finish.
ElleMX
March 6, 2025
How to give up anything… except for me AddictionINSTRUCTION

How to give up anything… except for me

You must have only one addiction... Me! Therefore, follow my guide to succsesful recovery and you can rest assured this is not a bunch of third party bullet points, but something I lived in my late teens. Whenever I give you INSTRUCTION it is because of something I've studied or experienced in detail! 48 seconds after resolving to quit: Take control of your personal environment  You know that moment in the movie when they lock down the safe and red lights start flashing and that enormous steel door slams shut. That's what you gotta do within seconds of quiting. Breaking an addiction is basically mounting a rebellion against every atom of your being i.e.... a period of acute neurological instability. During this time, the brain is primed to seek relief. Because of that, any added stress, responsibility, or environmental trigger significantly increases the risk of relapse. Including... Demanding Parents/kids/Spouse Tricky tasks like trying to fix stuff or mount IKEA furniture. Work commitments Needing to go out to buy food or supplies rather than already having them pre bought Noise, smells, chaotic environment dirt and disorder To conclude, immediately upon deciding to quit you must start organising everything so that from the first moment you have complete control of your environment. Create a womb, get supplies, cancel all commitments. 48 hours: Take control of your neuro chemistry Before we actually talk about active measures against neurochemical events, you should first of all educate yourself about everything that's going to be happening in your brain so that you don't misinterpret what's happening to you and don't freak out when it happens. For example, sometimes the initial hours can be a lot easier than you thought and you can get a kind of euphoria and get cocky, but then the next morning you have a crash and then you get depressed and then you think whole project is a load of ******** You'll think you're so unhappy and you just need to use. And you invent all these narratives in your head and then you end up using. Basically, you spin yourself a narrative about your life and your addiction and how you're feeling, know that there is only one narrative... NEUROCHEMISTRY! Dopamine activity had dropped Cortisol rises, increasing stress, urgency, irritability Glutamate increases which equals agitation. Of course, in the case of certain addictions you need active chemical measures: for example in the case of heavy alcohol users it's necessary to take Valium and not only will it be impossible to do if you don't have the value, but you could actually enter severe alcohol withdrawal which can lead to a number of arresting symptoms. Including death. To conclude: educate yourself about the neuro chemistry of what you're doing, and dose up if necessary on the prescribed meds.   48 days: Take control of your schedule There are basically two key components of your schedule which you need to manage. The first is about sensible avoidance of trigger events like Christmas with your family you could only deal with by getting drunk. Weddings. Work social events etc. You've got the rest of your life to learn to deal with these things without the addictive crutch, but in those first months it's best just to flat out avoid them. Eliminate all trigger events from your schedule. The second component of your schedule is to build a rewarding, healthy life with some clear avenues of pleasure. Keep some vices be they sugar or **** or whatever. go on an inner journey to discover what your true interests are and develop some passionate hobbies. If you need people but no longer know how to socialise without your addictive agent, then join a group like AA... Point is that your schedule must be arranged around the kind of life which is enjoyable. You can't give up your addiction and then basically be living an empty vessel of a life. If you do, you will fill that vessel with your addiction AKA relapse.  
ElleMX
February 3, 2025
As long as I’m not the subject…. 819LpM85oXL. AC SL1500BOOKS

As long as I’m not the subject….

This book shows the power of a title because I bought it purely based on the title. Unfortunately, though, the actual book didn't deliver quite so well. The main character is just not a nice person and she mirrors the exhausting way people today weaponize their grief/trauma/ADHD etc, to dodge accountability. Oh God I better shut up there or I'll just continue the amazingly good job I do of making myself unpopular.
ElleMX
February 3, 2025
Rain RainMY STORY

Rain

Today I'm taking revenge on the rain by eating a lot. If I can't go outside then I will fill my inside with every single carb I can find under this roof. I tell people I love the rain cos I'm a romantic, but it's just because I fucking love food and it gives me an excuse not to go out running. I hate exercise. I just pretend to like it. The only thing I really like is food. I want to eat cake. And pizza. And ice cream. And then a large burger with fries. And then I'll get bigger and bigger and nobody will want me then social oblivion will finally arrive. Thank God. And eventually they'll just have to Take Me Out of the house by taking the window out and using the crane But I don't care Just as long as I've got food. My only true love. Not surprisingly the rain is indifferent to my protest. I fucking hate dieting.    
ElleMX
January 28, 2025

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